Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I'm back.. Yup just had internet at home. Nope, to be exact, i got no idea when the house wireless will be up cuz the service of setting up wireless at home suck big time(for all providers i heard). I heard from mates that it will take 1 to 2 months for the boardband to be up?! WTH la.. How on earth can we do our work w/o internet?! I think by the time internet is up, will be end of sem already..... It just sucks.
I got no idea why everything seems wrong ever since i came back. Or maybe, most of the things. I couldn't breathe. For the first time in my life, deep down inside me, i'm feeling empty... Very empty. No one will understand how i feels now.
People judge me, people think of me the way no one had ever judged me that way before. I can't put my feelings into words. It just hurts, deep down....
The feeling of feeling scared and worried when i was young, were back to haunt me every now and then. Those scary dreams i had when i was young, were back too. Why? Why is all these happening?
Crying on nights when i really could not control. I don't wish to cry. But...... It just happened.
Feeling very emo these few days.. Esp when i'm alone..............
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